this is fun

Yea, I am so glad people are reading and commenting.

So Liam is about to loose his first tooth. That is so weird to me. I can't believe he is almost 6. I swear it seems like just yesterday I brought him home. I was talking to this girl in my building, she is not really a girl but "lady" and "woman" seem too old, anyway she is pregnant. I have been passing around the binder I made when I was pregnant with Liam. It is a 3 inch 3 ring binder. I kept any article I found that seemed important, from essentially conception to getting back in shape post baby. Amy has had it, then I gave it to Kathryn in my building and now Kristy. Kristy is a teacher and I was asking if she was going back to work. She said she and her husband are trying to figure out how to make it work.
I was reminded of the trip to the Museum of Contemporary Art that I made with Darren and Liam when he was about 3 weeks old and I had about 5 weeks left in my maternity leave. I cried the entire time. My heart ached like it has never ached before or since. Before I had Liam I had no question I was going back to work. I loved my job at Beltone, my best friend had just started there, there was no question. I got a promotion while on maternity leave. But man, on June 6th, when I saw Liam for the first time, I knew there was no way I could be away from him. It makes me tear up just thinking about it. So I went back to work and tried to keep it together but within 2 months I knew I wasn't doing anyone any favors, not Beltone, not me, not Liam and I started the long quitting process. It was another 7 months before I was truly not working but most of that was consulting from home so it was cool.

Darren was very worried and hated being put in the role of bread winner. And unfortunately we don't have a lot of wiggle room when he hates his job, like now. But he is a great husband and I do my part by keeping the house budget intact and finding new ways to save money. That is my job and it can be a full time one.

People would ask me if I work and I would say no I stay at home and they would say"oh that is work" I used to demure, when I only had one, and say truthfully, "not really." But 2 has changed my perception. It is work to stay home. But I love it and wouldn't change a thing.

More power to any woman who wants to work. I hate the mommy wars. But I hope that any woman who doesn't want to work can have the luxury, for lack of a better word, not to. My sister and I are very lucky and we know it.

(Just for the record I do still work for Weight Watchers but that hardly counts)